how do you feel?
(newsletter november 2020)
Checking in...
I'm sitting in my kitchen as I write this to you. It's full moon and Halloween and Berlin's "last night of freedom" as many are calling it. But I don't feel like going out, instead I'm preapring myself for a rare cosy evening alone in an empty apartment. How did I get here?
Well, in class this week I've been encouraging you to check in and ask yourselves "How am I?" and "What do I need right now?" When I answered those two questions this evening I realised I'm feeling vulnerable, and what I need is time to myself and more space to feel without worrying about how it might impact others. Once I finish this letter to you I'll be soaking in the bath and eating chocolate.
This act of listening and responding is enhanced when we practice Asana and Meditation. During this time we consciously engage and attune ourselves to really pay attention, re-centre and anchor into the present, even if that sometimes only lasts a few seconds. It's the practice that counts and sets us up to be more intuitive in our darker moments of need.
I also know that it can be tricky to make time to practice, and how easy it is to find a million reasons to avoid it. And yeah, sometimes it's totally OK to say no and to skip your practice without guilt tripping!
But other times that routine you're cultivating, whatever it may be, is stabilizing and supporting you in just the right ways, that stretch way beyond the moment of deciding whether to practice or not.
It's the practice that counts and sets us up to be more intuitive in our darker moments of need.
I have made a commitment to myself to keep checking in, to keep listening and to keep showing up to my practice. I've also made a commitment to you, that over the next weeks I will remain stable and present in my online offerings, so that you can more easily stick to your routines and regularly take class, if that's what you know you need.
Lastly, I just wanted to share with you that whilst I was Quarantined last week, several people sent me small messages of well wishes and offerings of help. It had such a warming, positive impact on me. Let's keep checking in with each other too, ask for help if you're struggling (I know it ain't easy!) and offer support when you can.